Being alone.

The man that I love is in the military.

I had always heard that being with someone in the military would be hard, but I never really understood.

I was single for so long before we got together and I was confident that I could handle being by myself for long periods of time.

Boy, has that changed.

I have found that the difference is - when I was single before, I lived by my family and friends.

If I felt lonely or bored, I could just call someone and they were five minutes away.

Now, I'm completely by myself in a strange city.

The girls at work make it a little easier for me. I've begun hanging out with them a bit outside of work.
It's the nights that are most difficult.

I double-, no, triple-check all three locks on every one of the doors that leads outside.

Then, I go and check them again.

I hate when my dog barks/growls when he hears a noise. 

I'm glad that he alerts me, but damn it, I just had a little heart attack.

Shadows become my worst nightmare.

The shower curtains are all left open - just in case.

I check every room and closet every time I get home.

Is anyone else as paranoid as me?

Does this get any easier?